A piece of Cigarette 一支香烟

"Finally i poisoning by cigarette already..."

When i start smoke, i felt nothing on me...
that was few years ago...

But now i felt something wrong with me on now...
is really hard to say it...hard to explain
No one know why, what happen with me...

No one know my felling, no one understanding me...
Don't have any people really care about me...
care about my felling...when they are spoke with me,
critic me and humiliating me
i felt disappointed...moods go raise then fall
just only thing i can do...
have a smoke...and start writing something on my blog
or in my diary....

i think i already poisoning by cigarette...
when my father know I'm smoked,
What he just told is...
"...If you don't care your life, no one will helping you..."

Erm......maybe he's right......but....
i hope someone can make me changing...
but i think don't have any people can done it...