八个月 8 Month

已经八个月了，生活还是一样的过...
一眨眼，八个月就这样的过了...
总是觉得一年总比一年烦...
一年总比一年难过....

在这八个月内，钱也花了不少...
手机 - S.E G700 - RM700++
保险 - RM260/1年
脚沓车 - RM1250
照相机 - RM2450
等等的东西...
这些加完总数已经有半万了吧？

哈哈...
我现在才发现，原来钱可以买到快乐
钱，可以买到朋友...
现在的我总是觉得，真心的朋友已经没几个了...
我现在的朋友，我可以看得出...
有的是为利益，有的是为了钱...
为了利益而作朋友，我的确是这种人...
我所认识的朋友有90%都是这样...

但是我很讨厌，为了钱可以和朋友反面...
这还承得上朋友吗？

我总觉得，在这世上要找个知心朋友...
非常的困难...

这八个月里，我看到的都是这些问题...
这些问题，总是纠缠在我脑海中...
我也想放弃了，不想再去想了...
总是叫人心烦...

Hurt So bad ...

哭了 才发现自己真的受伤了....
你曾对我说，你永远是我的...



也许 是我们彼此都太年轻了
就是特容易 沉迷在爱情里
每当，我再次看到身边美丽的花火
你也离开我，我还是想对你说

Baby i love you so much
你走了，我的心在淌血
Baby you hurt me so bad
想要你回到我的世界

Baby you hurt me so bad
你给我的诺言已经瓦解
Baby you hurt me so bad
只要我们都爱着，无论多苦都值得
说好的你真的忘记了

怀念 Miss

美丽的风景，不是每天都有...

美丽的风景，是很短暂的...

我很怀念，以前的回忆...

怀念过去...

是否我还是很在乎过去?

我还是分不清...

是否，自己....还是在乎过去？

是否，自己....还是在乎过去？
还是分不清...
现在的我，已经被工作困了

已经没有时间再让自己拥有放松心情的时候了...
现在的我...
只有目标...
没人可阻挡我...

I Like Sunrise...

This is the day...
that i can't have a slept at night....
the reason of can't slept is...
that is too many question "Why..."
it was flying all over around my mind...
ya...this question is very irritated...
"Why, why ah tell me why..."
ha ha...Locus Don't be so silly again...
go slept la....

But when want to have a nap that time ... there is already 5 a.m
ya...5 a.m

can't going into slept...
so ... want to go out and hanging around...
drive here and there...
there is no place to go...

When i reach to the beach...
ya...of cause...
that is the place that i always go...
when i having problem i will going to beach...
there is the best place for me to release my tension...

Ya...i love go to beach...

6 a.m in the morning ... i was at the beach with my
camera...


I still can saw the star at the sky...
that time is 6.25 a.m


Well...i just sit at there and wait the sunrise...


I love this scene...


I can saw the sun is rising up ...

Ya finally ...
i saw the sun came up from the sae...
I love it...
ha ha...
ya...
this is what i was do at beach
having a stupid Sunday like this...
but...i Like Sunrise...
if got chance...
i want to see sunset...
with the people i love the most...

Okay...i have to stop the crap till here...
"I like sunrise the most...i love sunset the most..."
capture photo with my Nikon D50...

Goodnight...

我爱雨天

已经好几天了，孤单的我
还是缺少了一些不该缺少的....

天黑了，雨下了
风吹了，我哭了...

是否放不下所有一切？
还是不想要放下一切...

或许是吧...
不能确定...

我，爱上了雨天
雨天，遮掩了我的泪水
就在我痛哭当中...
能够让我尽情的哭...

Tiramisu...Pick Me Up...带我走

The time is just pass away like that...
at this hour's...i was doing nothing...
nothing i can do at now...
but i just know that...
The meaning of Tiramisu...
well...i know you all know this is a Italian dessert...
so...did you all know what is the meaning of this word?

The meaning of this Italian dessert is mean
Pick Me Up...

Pick Me Up...
Hrm...
well don't know that is real or not you can go this link to see
http://encyclopedia.thefreedictionary.com/Tiramis%C3%B9

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The time...just pass it away...
sometimes...i was not enough time to use...
ya...that is real...
i was waste my time sometime...


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有人说, 时间可以证明一切
但是对我来说...
时间...并不算是什么...
只有金钱才可以证明一切。

人为钱生，为钱死
只有一个原因....
钱对我们来说，其实很重要
没钱没生活...
有钱就过好生活...

我在说什么??
或许是累了...

"爱得好累，真的好苦
女人不应该让男人太累。
虽然你是我的那一切，
也别让我感觉，爱你很可悲...."

哈哈...正巧
"女人不该让男人太累"
哈哈...
从小的我就爱上了这一首歌...

时间不早了...
也是到了闭目养神的时候了
晚安...

Life...

Actually...
i don't know what is going wrong with me...
well...
how...
weird...
just having some question...
always flying over my mind...
but...now...
felt wanna gave up...
gave up for everything's,
that everything's that i have...
i start felt tired in my life...
felt that just wanna end my life...
i can't really stand everything's that
i having now...
what is called life??

I doesn't know that...
felt don't wanna to know about that...
i sick for it...
is doesn't mean anything's to me...
i didn't know what is called "Life"

Ha ha...
i very foolish...
just like a piece of shit...in this world...

And i didn't know that
i just a toy play by people...
ya ... what i said that is true...
now a day, i just only know about it...
ha ha...maybe you all will think that I'm crapping at here

But who knows ??
who are fully know about me ??
i can tell ... even my parent's also didn't know what i really want...
I just felt tired in my life...
really tired on it...

Kenapa ... 为什么 ... Why ....

Sebelum ku kenalimu
hidupku cukup ngan suka duka
tak pernahku sangka semuanya akan berubah
dikau bagaikan cahaya, bagi jiwa ku ini
tak mungkinku lupa katamu kan sentiasa di sisi
bagaikan satu kisah cinta kita berdua ke mana
asyik berpegangan tangan orang lain dilupakan
apa terjadi, diriku ni masih tertekan
hati dilukai setelah janji ditunaikan
tiap kali ku fikir, tiada guna bersedih
rakan-rakan katakan buang masa ku cintai
dikau punca pedihku, tiada baik darimu
tiada langsung yang benar dalam ungkapan bibirmu

kenapa harus ku bercinta
kenapa ku begini
kenapa harus ku tanggung semua
kenapa harus ku bercinta
kenapa ku percaya
kenapa aku diperbodoh kasih

Tak mungkin ku lupa kali pertama bersua
tak sangka, dikau kan menjadi pedih yang kan dalami jiwa
siang malam termenung, sedih memakan hati
tak pernah ku ingat ku boleh diluka begini
namun ku cekal hatiku, tuk melupakanmu
ku tahu kau begitu
malas ku nak rayu, buang tenagaku
kau takkan mendengarku
selamat tinggal oh kasih
janganlah iri hati
hidup baru kan mula bila terbitnya mentari

kenapa harus ku bercinta
kenapa ku percaya
kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
kenapa harus ku merayu
kenapa ku percaya
kenapa harus ku dikecewakan kasih


kenapa harus ku bercinta
kenapa ku percaya
kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
kenapa harus ku merayu
kenapa ku bercinta
kenapa harus ku pegang janjimu

kenapa harus ku merayu
kenapa ku bercinta
kenapa harus ku diperbodohkan
kenapa harus ku percaya
kenapa ku bercinta
kenapa harus ku pegang janjimu
kasih

sekian lama telah ku simpan rasa ini di hati
baru kini ku berani tuk mengatakan oh gadis
dikau punca segala, kepedihan di hatiku
tak ingin lagi ku lihat wajahmu di hadapanku...

Sick

Ya...is me again ...
now already sick ...
maybe H1N1 ...
but i don't think so ...
headache...
nothing i can say ...
maybe ... yesterday i didn't sleep well ...
can say that i really not sleep at all ...
well...have some argue ...
with someone else ...

Don't talk about that ...
don't wanna to think back that things was happen ...
well ...
see this ...

When i was thinking something else ...
that i can't believe at that time ...
erm...ya...when i was thinking something else ...
ha ha ...

Well...maybe i was over thinking the question ...
"Why? Why?...but i still can't find the reason why ..."
that is making me headache ...
my eyes were start fishing already ...

So...finally...
Maybe i wanna to runaway from the question "Why..."
but is very make me tension ...
so i already make my own choice ...
to have a sleep ...

ha ha...
ya ... finally i get in sleep...
but ... i think i have to go to sleep now...
Is late ... morning still got an appointment at 6a.m ...
well ... goodnight everyone ...
goodnight ... "my dear" ...
Goodnight myself ...
Goodnight ...

A Place "Pantai Kemasik"

A place that i have been go over ...

is a really nice place ...
hope that i can always be there...ha ha...
i like this place...
a place that i can release stress
hope that i can go over there again...

...Untitled...

Well...start from now on words,
i won't be runaway from the problem anymore...
i will challenge everything,
that i have to be challenge...

原则

为何这一年来，我还是放不下她？
为什么？
她让我改变了很多...
不再似以前的我了...
哈哈，只能够说自己是笨蛋。

现在的我，不会再轻易的相信别人了...
这要感谢她，把以前单纯的我
变成现在的我...
哈哈，现在也变成我的原则了...

如果要我相信，那就证明让我看...
是真是假，随口说说
我是永远都不会相信。
话到此为止。

What i'm doing ??

What i'm doing ??
I'm doing what ??

ha ha...smoke...

ha ha...

well...
finally that i know
I really a stupid...

from now on...i wont be trusted anyone ...
i wont be believe anyone anymore...

Hurt So bad ...

"Baby you hurt me so bad, 你走了 我的心在淌血..."

Listening the song's "Hurt So Bad"
Singing by Hints Chang's

Ha ha...
well this is the 100 post for my blog story now...
need to thanks those people who come and visit my blog
and this few month the thing's was happen on me...
it also include in my blog story...

A people ...
that is very childish ...
ha ha... force me to write her in my blog...
but ... i have nothing to write on it...
about her...

Ha ha...
did u wanna know who is her ?
Her name Celine , can also called her Shi Ling
but for me i called her "wei ... "
xD
Ha ha ... funny
well...
she is a friend of mine also
her age if i not forget is just a 14 years old little girl...

She, her character ...
hard to be explain loo....
Playful, funny, childish ....
ha ha... is really hard to say loo..

But i know that she have many problem
that she can't solve by her self...
so ... can say, she is the most always chat with me
well, i can said now i am her Doctor ...
ha ha...to open her mind that Doctor
xD

well...when a age at 14
is really having some problem to be worry
for girl ... is trying to start wanna have a relationship with boy...
hrm... maybe she's also the same
that night, she ask me ....
"Locus, can you let me know, What is Love?"

Ha ha...
she is want to start need a relationship with someone ..
i also don't know that person is who ... i no need to mention about
that la...ha ha ... she know by her self la...
ha ha...
but that time i really helping her ... to let her know
what is called love ...
but actually ... i also not so sure what is love...
but ... i have been hurt by love....
well is not the 1st time already ...
but ... start that time ... it is have been last year
She is cheat on me ... but that time i really like change to the other people..
is not the previous of me already
...is the eyes having fully of untrusted people mind thinking...
now i only realize...what is called love
love is blind...
love can let people do everything's
as what i said ... ABCDEFG
"A boy can do everything for girl"
when a boy really in love ...
but after that ... when getting cheated ...
is totally different ... from the previous person change to another person

I also the same .... not only me ... in this world having many guy
also have a same feeling with me ...

So ... i try to explain what i have been passed to her...
what is called love...
well is not worth to do everything cause of love for someone...

She... is still a young girl ...
just the age if 14 only ...
well ... she sometime have a little argue with my half brother...
he is called Henry ...
i want to wonder why they 2 are always like that
but at the end they will be back as normal again ...
ha ha... she is very funny la ...

"baby won't you tell me why, that is sadness in your eyes..
i don't wanna say goodbye to you ..."
oh my favorite song's
"That Why"
so tonight have to stop at here...
bye...

End

A Cup Of Coffee...

A cup of coffee with me every night...
the taste is great...Davidoff Espresso coffee
i like coffee...it always be with me everyday & night...

Well, a cup of coffee when drink at the midnight
what is the feel is ...
ha ha...is taste great actually ...

At the same time

I have know this 3 friends with a cup of coffee...
ha ha....just need to sit in front of the PC ...

I know them 3 in MSN ...
well, their name is called Celine, Fenice & Henry
this 3 person was know each other earlier on before...
they are very funny ....
ha ha ...
what i know, they all are very closed friends...
Sometimes having a little argue...
especially Celine & Henry...
they like to argue for nothing actually ...
ha ha ha....
like to see them argue with each other...
Just like a child...

By the way, is a month already
i know this 3 person ...
but now ...
ha ha...
maybe everybody have their own thing's to mine & do ..
we are less chatting now
well....
I also will be more busy on my own work later
start from September...
But really hope that we can chat again ...

Runaway 逃避

Runaway from the question is not the right way to facing the problem...
but ... I'm trying to runaway from the idiot question...

I can be trying to forgive, but is really hard to forget
Is impossible to tell you the truth...
i won't be tell the truth to you
never and ever...
even previously you are my best friend's...
Sorry ... you just make me felt sick to you...

Please do not asking those stupid, idiot question anymore...
i won't be answer those question and i don't wanna answer it...

Hate myself for...

"Hate myself for loving you so much...
oh i hate myself for falling back in love...
Never been good at words i want to say to say
I sing my love for you
I'll just let the music makes me love to you ..."

i hate my self for falling back in love...
what i can say...
nothing i can say...
just need to blame my self ...
why...why...why...
but i can't be found the reason why...
i start hate my self...
hate my own self...
why so easy falling love...

现在是凌晨2点钟

"这是你离开的第二个星期六
面包我吃了两口，啤酒还剩半手
香烟我还是一包接一包地抽
我们分手以后
我还会常常地在凌晨的深夜里
等你上网

现在是凌晨三点钟，喝了点酒头有点痛
寂寞的烟点燃空虚的夜，暂时把心放空..."


凌晨2点了，我还有什么能做呢？
现在的我，开始觉得疲倦了....
不想再面对任何一切...
喝了酒头有点痛..

不知该怎么写了...
晚安...

信心

有些东西，失去了还可以挽回
能够挽回，就要好好的珍惜

有些东西，失去了就不会再有机会从来
就算再用多少心机，补救，都于事无补

我，失去的却是自己的信心
失去了自己的信心，如同失去了所有一切

慢慢的开始想念，慢慢的开始怀念
不知不觉的我，又开始爱上了香烟

我现在才发现，原来自己是这么的白痴

可以为了某些事情而不顾一切
到后来，就失去了所有一切

仿佛一艘船靠不了岸
在迷茫的海上漂浮着

我希望，我可以找到能够可靠的岸
让我这艘迷茫的船停泊....

That why ...

"Baby want you tell me why, there is sadness in your eyes
I don't wanna say goodbye to you...
Love is one big illusion, I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head

You're the one who set it up
Now you're the one to make it stop
I'm the one who's feeling lost right now
Now you want me to forget every little thing you said
But there is something left in my head

I won't forget the way you're kissing
The feelings so strong were lasting for so long
But I'm not the man your heart is missing
That's why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried
Now you wanna say goodbye to me
Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
But there is something left in my head"


I won't forget, what today was happen...
ha ha ... a foolish choice that i do on previously...
my memory maybe today is the last ...
maybe i will stop to write my blog again...
this is the end of my blog...

Well, i wont forget what i wrote in my blogger..
in a year, is really many things happen on me ...
blog let me know
i can wrote my story inside here...
i really enjoy to wrote my blog...

But it is too many thing that happen on me ...
maybe i will stop my blog till here ...

thanks for everyone who visit my blog,
and leave comment in my blog
i will end my blog today

"that why you go away i know"

End

Everything ~ 所有

故事里的起承转合有一些忘记
做了多少错误的选择
原来波折才暗示着该走的方向
指引你我来到这一刻

就算别人都说我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃

Cause you're my Everything
就一个原因让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天

永远从此刻开始算起
你的爱是我的Everything

辽阔天际巧合相遇有多少机率
多少烟火坠落无痕迹
因为幸福没有捷径难免要绕道
不被看好越是要走到

就算别人都说我们没什么出息
不可能会这样轻易放弃

你就是Everything
就这个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意 所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的Everything

Cause You're My Everything
就这个原因 让我勇敢面对这个世界
想给你Everything
不管用多少个明天 永远从此刻开始算起

你就是Everything
就如这个原因 我会永远记住这种感觉
想给你Everything
只要你说一声愿意 所有的未来才有意义
你的爱是我的
Everything

"You are my everything...
without you ...
my life was meaningless...
now i know the reason why...
why I love you...
Cause You're My Everything."

A place called Heaven

A place call heaven ...
but have you been there before ?
the answer is "No"...

Have a song's let me refresh back many things...
that is from my memory...
"25 minutes"

"I find her standing in front of church,
the only place in town where i didn't search...
she looks so happy in her wedding dress...
but she crying while she's saying this....."

I miss her ...
already a week ...
i didn't saw her online ..
very very miss her...

Everything's 所有

"Cause you're my everything,
just a reason why,
you make me be brave to facing the world...

Want gave you everything,
No matter use how many day's,
let us start the beginning today,
your love is my everything...."